I never truly knew what it really meant to hear the phrase of someone passing away
Until I experienced the reality of my dear father attaining his heavenly abode
An event that one knows is the ultimate truth but realization sank in late
As I relived the memories yet was not willing to acknowledge my fate
One always likes to remain in a stage of eternal denial
A dilemma that makes me wonder loud about my own existence of life
It just put all stops to all of my ambitions and aspirations
As I realized that one day nothing will eventually remain of the beads of perspiration
I always heard that we come empty handed and would eventually go the same route
It just happened that it was not very easy to manage my mental and emotional state
I felt uprooted and begin to dread the fact of starting life anew on a clean slate
Especially after attaining the insight that I had very little control on my own fate
As we all know there is always a fair difference between theory and practice
I had to grit and bear the advice of one and many as I lived out my destiny
The beads of conflict of past, present and future started to raise its hood
I had no time to brood especially since I had to control my own mood
Time stood still but yet seemed to be in an eternal flow
In the face of the rituals that only seemed to steadily grow
Every ritual had a relevant and meaningful significance
The substance and essence of life on hindsight urging me to get off the fence
As experiences of joy and sorrow were relived and memories were refreshed
The irony is that all of it was expressed posthumous rather than when in flesh and blood
The soul was encouraged to follow the light and seek its eventual site
I still dressed in the fantasies of this world was urged to further plough my might
The magical wand of the single breath of life expressing its all time power
Made me realize the meaningless and fruitless existence of my own life in a tower
As I realized that I do not even have control of the next second of time
It just made me more respectful and careful in squeezing every ounce of time
Never procrastinate on anything putting off actions that you feel is relevant and of value
Never feel that you should not express your emotions when life is in free flow
Never for once develop a myth that human life is always eternal
Always live life doing what you desire especially for those you truly desire!
